Kitty looked at the pile of suitcases on her bed and smiled in relief. It was time to return home. At last.
It had been a pleasant stay at the resort. She had enjoyed her usual week, plus an extra two days when, during a massage session, her elbow had become too loose and almost came out of its socket. But now everything seemed to be in place again.
Suffering from rheumatism, even only a mild case, was not easy. Kitty knew she was blessed to be as strong as she was and to have the money for proper care.
The doctor knocked on the door and walked in looking pleased. He smiled warmly. “How are you feeling, Miss Langley?”
She smiled back. “Very well, thank you. I feel revitalized and prepared for my journey.”
“We have not yet had news about your coach, but no doubt it shall arrive soon,” the doctor reassured her. “How is your elbow?”
“No complaints, doctor,” she replied.
“And everything else is as it should be?” he asked.
She nodded. “A thousand times better than when I first arrived.”
The doctor smiled and scribbled some notes into his journal. “You have done very well, very well indeed, Miss Langley,” he said. “I am sure that Dr. Allen will be able to pick up from where we’re leaving it off.”
Dr. Allen was the family doctor. He had cared for Kitty ever since she was a little girl, for her mother when she became ill. And now, he tended to her father as well ever since a terrible bout of pneumonia left him with a painful cough.
Dr. Allen would have appreciated his three-week long holiday, but would no doubt be home several days before her coach arrived, and her room would be perfectly prepared for her as if she had never left.
As soon as her coach was announced, Kitty made her way to the entrance. They always offered her a wheelchair, although she had not needed to use one for years. It was as though nobody believed she was able to get better rather than worse.
“Oh, we’ll miss you, sweetie,” the head nurse said, adjusting Kitty’s bonnet.
“And I shall miss you,” Kitty replied. “Everyone is so kind to me here, I feel truly at home. I cannot wait to return for my next rest.”
“Unless you require further treatment,” the nurse remarked.
Kitty felt a slight concern. “I am in no pain, I hope I shall not need treatment at least until the end of the year.”
“I hope so too, my dear,” the nurse replied.
Kitty made her way to the coach, where her last case was being firmly tied to the roof of the vehicle ready for the long journey home. Inside the coach sat a maid and Kitty’s travel bags by her feet. She was ready to attend to anything the Kitty needed on her trip home.
As the coach pulled away and rolled down the hill towards the docks where the ferry would be no doubt just arriving, Kitty looked out of the rear window.
It was always a little sad to see the resort disappear into the distance. But she also knew that she would be back before long. Her father would not allow her to go more than a few months without treatment. She huffed a breath of indignation. She did not need it.
As a young girl, she had needed vast amounts of medical care. Nobody had dared think that a child her age could be suffering rheumatism, and it only dawned on them when she was six that she had been suffering from it her entire life.
At six, she was barely able to walk, and always in intense pain at her knees, ankles and back. So much so that she rarely left her bed. She was restricted to a wheelchair until she was ten.
But even as she grew stronger and healthier, her father seemed to refuse to acknowledge it. It was getting to a point where she was receiving treatments she did not need, just to comfort him. She lived an active life and enjoyed long walks around their property. She wasn’t a little girl anymore.
Her mother’s death had really affected Kitty’s father. He was always protective of Kitty, but when her mother passed away he became even more overbearing. From that point onward he went from simply guarding her when she was in pain, to treating her as though she were made of the thinnest crystal.
And no matter how effective her treatments were, no matter how well she felt, he insisted on steam baths, massages, special oils and ointments—anything that was recommended. Although she was tired of this, she did not complain. She smiled, accepted her treatment, and told him how much better she felt after them. She couldn’t hurt him.
She had been only eight when her mother had passed, and it left a deep scar on her heart. He may be overbearing, but Kitty would do anything to make her father happy. And it made him happy to treat her rheumatism. It gave him a purpose in life.
It was a peculiar situation, where he could not bear to see her in pain, but he couldn’t believe that she was ever not in pain. He needed her to be in pain so he could treat her, so he could look after her. And she needed to play along just so she could see him smile.
And yet now she was growing weary of it. She wanted freedom. She wanted to marry. She wanted to go out and watch the races, go to balls, walk with her friends and do all the things that normal young ladies did.
As the sun set on the first day, she could already feel her knees trying to seize up, and began lightly exercising them as she sat there, so they would not get stiff as she slept. She would have to sleep on the ferry at first, and the cabins were small and cramped. It was best to go in as relaxed as possible.
The journey was long, and it always made her joints stiff. But she knew that once she was home she would limber up in no time. Her condition was nowhere near as debilitating as her father seemed to believe.
She could not sit too still for very long, and she could not travel far. But the only reason she ever had to do either of these things was to receive treatment. If she simply stayed home she would not have to worry about such matters.
But her father would never understand that.
As the sun dawned on the sixth day, Kitty was pleased to wake up and see the fields outside their village. Home at last. Due to the lack of inns on the last stretch of their journey she had been forced to sleep two nights in the coach, and she looked forward to her own cosy bed.
She saw the usual bright barn that meant there was only an hour left to go.
“Please pack up my books,” she said to the maid.
The maid smiled. “Of course, mistress.”
As the maid packed away Kitty’s books and assorted travel items, Kitty looked out of the window and tried to spot the usual landmarks as they rolled by, counting down the minutes until she was home.
It was barely seven in the morning as they finally pulled up outside her home. The gardens were in full bloom, and the mansion was glimmering with dew in the sunlight. It shone like something out of fairy land.
An enormous, bearded, gruff man walked out, still in his bed coat, a broad grin stretching his plump, furry cheeks. Kitty waved at him through the window as the coach pulled up at the bottom of the stairs.
The driver descended from his seat and opened the door for Kitty. She made sure both her legs were feeling strong before standing up and stepping out of the coach. The last thing she wanted was to fall over and scare her father.
Once firmly on solid ground, Kitty all but threw herself into her father’s arms. “I have missed you so much, daddy,” she said, feeling her heart rest easy now she was safely home.
“I have missed you too, my dearest. Now, come indoors, it is cold. We must get you a nice, filling breakfast,” he insisted.
He was just as obsessed with making sure she ate enough as he was with her treatments. Although she did not need much nourishment due to her fairly inactive lifestyle, he would become so worried when she didn’t finish the enormous plates she was served, that now she had taken to dropping some under the table for the dogs.
“How is my little girl after her journey? Not too sore?” he asked as they sat at the table, an enormous plate of cold pie, cheeses, and bread in front of both of them. Baron Langley had a glass of wine, and Kitty had her usual spiced tea, an Eastern remedy for her pains, according to Dr. Allen.
“I am feeling quite well,” she said with a smile.
“You seemed stiff when you walked in,” her father replied sternly.
She knew she couldn’t get away with lying, but she still tried. She didn’t want to cause him undue concern. He was very good at worrying excessively all on his own.
“I am always stiff after my journey, you know this, father,” she insisted. “I shall be right as rain in a day or two.”
“I hope so, because I would like to attend a gala on Sunday. Your friends will be there,” he said, taking a hearty bite of cheese.
Kitty politely listened and, as he was distracted, dropped some pie to her feet, where the dogs, silent as though understanding their complicity, quickly made it disappear. “That would be lovely, father,” she replied.
“I was thinking that perhaps you could meet a few nice young men there,” Baron Langley said. “I know how much you want to meet an appropriate suitor, and maybe this time it shall happen.”
“I do hope so,” Kitty replied.
Her father nodded. “I have been thinking, and I know you do not like me to think of this, but I have been thinking about what may happen when I am no longer here for you. And I think you need a good husband, to care for you.”
Kitty just smiled. She knew what would happen. It was what always happened. She would hit off wonderfully with a young man who was handsome, funny, educated, wealthy, and witty, he would go to her father to ask to court her… and then her father would say something about her illness and they would never see the young man ever again.
She had stopped caring about this, to be honest. She used to aspire to marry well, have a beautiful wedding, and bear many children. But as man after man had been scared away, she had given up. At least, contrary to her father’s fears, she knew she would be able to care for herself when she was all alone.
Kitty dropped some cheese under the table as she ate some bread. She could feel the dogs’ tails wagging against her shins as they enjoyed their breakfast.
“I think the gala is a wonderful idea,” she said again with a nod.
“Good, good. I shall inform Duke and Duchess Haskett that we shall attend. But now you need to get plenty of rest,” her father said with a warm smile. “Otherwise you shall be in no shape to attend the gala.”
“It is not for a few days, I shall be fine,” Kitty reassured him, gently resting her hand on his arm.
“Yes, but you must rest for a few days,” he insisted. “You need to stay home and build up your strengths. I know how badly you suffer when you overdo it.”
She smiled and nodded.
Sitting by her window, Kitty felt very much a prisoner in her own home. This was something else that always happened. Whenever there was even a hint that she was under the weather, she was stuck at home. Her father could not fathom that she might be unwell one day and better the next. In his mind, every little ache required a week of convalescence.
The sun shone beautifully outside, the garden looked so bright and fragrant, and she would have to just watch from her stuffy bedroom.
She heard a knock at her door. “Who is it?” she asked.
“Just me,” her father said from the other side.
“Come in,” she offered.
The door opened and he walked in, smiling proudly as he saw her resting by the window.
“I know that you do not like resting here too much. So that you do not suffer the lack of company, I have invited a friendly young man for dinner,” he said, sitting down in the armchair opposite her.
Kitty felt excitement welling up in her chest. This would be perfect! “That is wonderful news,” she replied. “Who is he?”
“Someone by the name of Josiah Morton. I met him at an event last week. Lovely young man, his title slips my mind, but he seemed like the sort who might take good care of you.”
“I am sure he is wonderful,” she replied. “I shall choose a dress for tonight.”
Baron Langley nodded and stood up, resting a heavy hand on her shoulder. “Just make sure it is not too exposed, I don’t want you to get cold.”
Kitty smiled. “I shall choose one with long sleeves,” she replied.
“Good girl,” her father said. “I shall ensure that dinner is excellent for tonight.” And with that he left the room.
Kitty was just happy to be able to while away the hours trying on dresses, now that she had an excuse. It was something to do.
She eventually selected her best dress, a pretty pink number that highlighted her chestnut locks and bright blue eyes. After finding the right shoes and jewellery to go with it, she laid them out carefully on her bed, then returning to her seat by the window.
Staring out at the bright green fields, the wispy clouds dancing in the blue sky, and the little birds swooping past her window, she wondered what this young man would be like. However much he seemed intent on scaring them away, her father has excellent taste when it came to her suitors.
Dinner time arrived and, dressed and made up, Kitty felt like she was royalty. She smiled at her own reflection as she walked past the mirror and out of her bedroom. Ordinarily her father wouldn’t even let her leave the room when she was “recovering”. This was a wonderful exception.
“You look like a little doll,” her father said with a proud smile.
Kitty beamed. “I am glad. Is he here yet? I would love to meet him.”
“He is not, but he will no doubt be here soon,” Baron Langley replied. “So we must make sure we are ready to receive him properly.”
Sure enough, just as they made their way downstairs, a young man was shown in by the butler. He was very tall, with dark wavy hair, bright eyes, and a sharp, handsome face. He smiled warmly as a maid took his coat and hat to be hung up somewhere.
“Master, mistress,” the butler began, “Duke Josiah Morton is here.”
She had not expected that. A Duke. And at his young age too! Duke Josiah Morton was almost the ideal. Handsome, young, wealthy, and powerful. Provided he was also a charmer to talk to, she would have no trouble getting along with him.
“Charmed to make your acquaintance,” Kitty said, making eye contact with him.
Sitting down for dinner, Kitty smiled politely at him. She could almost melt as he smiled back, he was so handsome. “I am pleased that you were able to make it.”
“Well, when a Baron says he has a pretty young daughter looking for suitors, I do like to oblige,” he replied. “I am only sad that you were not at last week’s ball.”
Kitty looked aside. “I am afraid I was away, but I shall be at Duke Haskett’s gala this weekend, if you shall be there.”
“I may,” he replied. “You really are lovely, I am astounded that you do not yet have any suitors,” Duke Morton said, grinning at her.
She nodded. “It is a little complicated. But I am away a lot. Most young men are not prepared to handle that.”
“What a coincidence, I am away a lot also. I suppose we could try and travel together,” he replied.
“I am not sure that you would want to accompany me on my travels,” Kitty said with a nervous giggle.
“And why would that be?” Duke Morton asked, sipping his wine.
Kitty could feel her face hot with shame. Ought she to hide this from him? It would not be right, surely? And yet she knew what happened whenever she mentioned her condition. Or better said, whenever her father mentioned her condition.
It was probably better to get it out of the way. As quickly and as casually as possible. If he was going to ignore her, then so be it. But there was no point letting him build up hope and interest only for him to back away as soon as he found out.
Besides, it wasn’t as though her condition would scare away everyone. She was not so ill. Someone would eventually look past it and understand her.
But before she could say anything a maid marched in and curtsied low before her.
“We have a letter for you, mistress,” the maid said, holding out a tray with a letter on it.
“Thank you,” Kitty replied. Taking the letter and turning it over, she saw a deep brown wax crest had sealed it. “Father, may I take this to the hallway to read? It may require my immediate attention.”
Baron Langley raised an eyebrow a little. “Of course, but please return as soon as you are done.”
Kitty left the room. She couldn’t read this in front of her new suitor. She knew where it was from based on the seal. The resort. She opened the letter and read it. Just a confirmation that her treatment would not be for another six months, unless rescheduled, as she was doing very well. Kitty sighed in relief.
“Maid?” she asked softly, so as to not be heard on the other side of the door.
The maid, who had followed her out of the dining room, patiently waiting for further instruction, walked up to her. “Yes, mistress?”
“Please leave this letter on my father’s desk, for his records,” Kitty said. “And thank you for bringing it to me.”
The maid curtsied. “Of course, mistress. I shall see to that immediately.”
Kitty was happy. She knew her father would no doubt reschedule, but it was always good to hear that her health was robust. Even if her father wouldn’t believe it.
Rejoining her father and the duke, she curtsied before sitting down.
“What was that?” her father asked. “Nothing important?”
She shook her head. “Not at all.”
“If it requires my attention, I can—”
Kitty shook her head again. “It is all arranged.”
“I see, was it from the resort?” her father asked.
“Oh, it is nothing, just my treatment has been rescheduled,” she replied without thinking.
“Treatment?” Duke Morton asked, raising an eyebrow. “Whatever for, you seem right as rain?”
Kitty smiled, feeling a sweat break out on the back of her neck. From the looks of it he was not the sort of man to take these things lightly. “It’s just a little care I require for an ailment I have had since I was a girl. It doesn’t cause me much trouble.”
“And you cannot say what that ailment is?” he asked.
“I am not sure why I should have to,” Kitty replied defiantly. “It clearly does not affect me in my day to day life.”
“I am not sure I could marry a young lady who is going through treatment for something,” the duke said, an eyebrow rising again in suspicion.
Kitty sighed. “That is your choice to make, though I do believe it is foolish to dismiss someone on grounds of her health alone,” she said somewhat bitterly.”
“I am not sure it is worth my staying for dinner,” he replied.
“Now, now, let’s not be too hasty,” Baron Langley said, slight panic creeping in his voice.
“I have some matters to attend do at home,” Duke Morton replied, standing up. “It has been lovely seeing you again, and I hope I shall see you soon.”
Baron Langley sighed in resignation. “Of course, I hope that you are able to attend to all the matters you need to.”
Duke Morton nodded and smiled. “Thank you. Do not worry about seeing me to the door, I am sure I can find my own way.”
“I am sorry to have troubled you, Your Grace” Kitty’s father said, settling back into his seat as the duke left. He looked down at his plate.
Kitty could tell her father had lost his appetite. This was a bad sign. This was always a bad sign. When he was comfortable and happy, he was always hungry. When he did not eat, something was wrong. He kept staring at his plate until they heard the front door close. Duke Morton, like many before him, had been scared away.
Baron Langley glared at Kitty. “Why would you say something so blatant in front of our guest, Kitty?” he said, exasperated. “Now he shall not want anything to do with you.”
“I- I was not thinking,” Kitty replied. “You mentioned the resort and I- I am so sorry, father.”
“The resort is not a problem. People attend resorts all the time for perfectly innocent reasons. It is the treatment we did not want him to know about yet. And you had to mention it,” he said bluntly, pushing his plate away. “I am not hungry. You have spoiled my dinner.”
“Well ordinarily it is you who cannot keep quiet about my condition,” Kitty replied angrily. “Why do you think all my last suitors left, father?”
“They need to find out sooner or later,” the Baron replied. “After all, with your condition we cannot exactly keep it a secret. But there is a time and a place to reveal these things so that good men are not scared away by the idea of courting a woman who is so frail.”
“Pray, tell me then,” Kitty replied, “when is the right time and place. Because I am not sure if you have noticed, father, but every suitor has left, no matter when or where you have told him.”
She knew this hurt her father and she shouldn’t have said it. But she was not about to sit there and be blamed for her own lack of suitors. Her father’s face grew red with rage.
“Perhaps at the gala I shall meet a man who does not mind, but so far they have all been resistant to courting me for that very reason,” she added.
“No, young lady, you shall not attend the gala. You may come along and wait in the front room as everyone else enjoys themselves,” he replied.
Kitty felt a pain in her chest. “Daddy, please don’t,” she started. “I shall behave, I am sorry. I do not know what came over me. Just allow me to—”
“No,” her father said bluntly. “No, you have disrespected me and you need to learn.”
Kitty felt her heart sinking as she realized what she had just done to herself.
The gala would have been wonderful if she had been allowed to attend. She watched from the front room of the Duke of York’s mansion as the guests paraded up the stairs, each more elegantly dressed than the last, laughing, smiling, and ready for a long night of drinking, socializing, and dancing.
Kitty could hear the cheer outside the door to the front room, wondering if she got closer to the door whether she would be able to make out the conversations taking place. But then she would not be able to see them marching in.
Everything looked so luxurious, so exciting, so beautiful. She should be out there, or, better yet, already in the ball room, wearing her sapphire blue dress, spinning and dancing until she was giddy with joy.
Instead, dressed fairly plainly, Kitty sat holding a book in the front room, trying to eavesdrop on the guests as they arrived. She would not be able to listen in once everyone was there. The dancing was taking place at the other side of the vast mansion, and she could barely hear the music.
But people had been arriving for the past hour, and already the crowd was thinning and slowing. Soon everyone would be dancing in the ball room and she would just have to sit in the front room and read a book, like a child waiting to be sent to bed.
As the last coach pulled away and the last beautiful dress waved in the breeze and disappeared through the front door, Kitty curled up tighter in her window seat and finally opened her book.
Before she could even begin reading, the door opened with a slam, startling her.
A young woman walked in, sighing in exhaustion. She turned to the left and arranged her hair in the mirror, before inspecting her face, her jewels, and the fit of her dress. She was oblivious to the fact that she was not alone, so Kitty picked her book back up and began reading it quietly, as though she also had not noticed the other woman.
Nevertheless, she watched over the edge of her book as this beautiful young woman, with a crowded arrangement of silky, shiny, thick black hair, mellow blue eyes, and a sensual gait, preened herself in front of the mirror.
As Kitty turned the page, an abandoned book mark slid out and landed on the floor with a whisper. It was loud enough. The lady turned around and scanned the room.
Then her eyes landed on Kitty. “I beg your pardon, I did not see you there,” she said with a nervous chuckle.
Kitty shook her head. “It is quite alright, I was absorbed in my book. I am Kitty Langley,” she said.
“I am Delilah, Delilah Sinclair,” the woman replied.
Sinclair… Kitty knew that name from somewhere, though she couldn’t quite put her finger on it. It was something important, and yet as soon as she felt she was about to recall it, it slipped her mind.
Delilah had returned to her reflection and was aligning her necklace so that the clasp was once again behind her neck.
“Why are you not dancing? At first, I thought you were a member of staff, you are dressed so plainly, but your clothes look far too expensive,” Delilah observed, walking over to the fire place, sitting down before it, and slipping her feet out of her slippers.
Kitty was surprised she could tell from that distance. “I am the daughter of Baron Langley,” she replied. “But I am not allowed to attend the gala.”
“Oh, I see. Are you still a little young?” Delilah asked, placing her bare feet on a little footrest and sighing in relief. “I didn’t take you for a child.”
“Not at all. I was going to be there, but I had an argument with my father, and it is my punishment to not attend the gala,” Kitty replied.
“That must have been a serious matter,” Delilah said, finally leaning back in her chair, looking into the fire.
“It was,” Kitty replied. “He had invited a Duke round for dinner, and was hoping that the young man would show some interest in me. But I accidentally mentioned my condition, and he would not have left faster if he had a pack of wolves chasing him.” She laughed nervously. “That happens a lot, though.”
“A condition, eh?” Delilah asked. “I understand that. My own father suffered from chronic stomach and chest pains. The doctors said he had a growth inside him which could not be removed. These things do get in the way of your life, and the life of your family. Not everyone is prepared for that.”
Kitty shrugged. “That is just it, there is nothing to be prepared for. I am managing my condition myself. I do not need a husband to care for me like some invalid. I am perfectly capable of looking after myself. But my father does not believe so, and insists on my getting all sorts of treatment. Which, naturally, means all my suitors need to find out about the treatment, and that puts them off.”
“So you are not seriously ailing, or dying?” Delilah asked a little flippantly.
“Nothing so serious, although my father seems to believe I am at constant risk of coming to harm,” Kitty replied. “I can hardly believe that the man who spends half his life talking about how ill and frail I am has punished me for even mentioning my illness.”
“I suppose it is not an easy thing for him to manage. On the one hand he needs to defend you, but on the other he wants to make sure you marry the right man,” Delilah replied. “All fathers are a bit like that.”
Kitty pursed her lips. “I suppose so. But my father has a justification for acting this way.”
“And your mother?” Delilah asked.
“She passed away when I was a little girl. I think my father is more protective because of it,” Kitty explained.
“It must be difficult,” Delilah said, nodding. “But I am sure that you persevere.”
Kitty felt her heart warm a little towards Delilah. “I do my best. It’s easier now I’m not quite as ill as I used to be. I used to be such a sickly child. My father doting over me was just what I needed back then. But now I am a grown woman. Sometimes… sometimes it feels as though my condition has moved from being a physical burden to being an emotional one.”
“How so?” Delilah asked.
“It used to hurt, and my joints used to be stiff all the time. But lately I only have the odd bad day. Most of the time I am no less capable than any other girl my age. And now I must pretend to still be ill, and go along with my father’s beliefs, which is ruining my marriage prospects. If I were to act as well as I feel, my father would be saddened by the fact that he does not need to care for me.” Kitty sighed and sank back further into the window seat.
It was odd to talk to a stranger about this, but she felt better for talking to this wonderful young lady. She noticed that although there was a ring mark on her finger, there was no ring.
“Tell me a bit about you, seeing as you know my life story now,” Kitty said. “Are you married?”
Delilah pursed her lips. “I am not.” Then, she fell silent.
Kitty paused, waiting for Delilah to add something else. Especially considering the little white line left behind from wearing a wedding ring many years. But she said nothing.
“Are you engaged yet?” Delilah asked suddenly, before Kitty could say anything else. “You look about the right age.”
“Like I said, my father manages to scare all my suitors away. Or, well, I did so this time. But generally it is him,” she replied. “I don’t think any one of them stayed for long enough to get to know me as a person.”
“Oh,” Delilah said, sounding a little disappointed. “I would have thought that, what with you being so pretty, at least one would have given you enough time to prove yourself. I have trouble believing that all young men would be so superficial.”
“Alas, it seems that they are,” Kitty replied.
“You will find the right man eventually,” Delilah said with conviction. “There is no doubt plenty of men out there who would give their right arm to be married to someone as lovely as you.”
Kitty laughed nervously. “No young man would have me, not as I am now. Between my treatments and my father’s exaggeration of my illness, none have been brave enough to stay.”
“And why would you want to settle for the sort of man who runs for the hills when he faces even the smallest challenge? If you ask me, your circumstances are a blessing, as they will drive away all but the most serious of suitors,” Delilah mused.
“And what if nobody is serious?” Kitty asked.
“Then would you not rather be a spinster, than married to a coward? I know I would,” Delilah replied with a smirk.
Kitty just sighed.
“But that is beside the point. The right man will come along, you’ll see,” Delilah insisted. “And he shall be everything you ever dreamed of and more.”
Kitty smiled. Delilah was such a wonderful person. How could she be so warm, so kind, so encouraging to someone she had only just met? Although they had barely been talking half an hour, Kitty felt a strong affinity for Delilah, as though she were discovering a sister she had never had.
“Thank you for being so kind to me,” Kitty said softly.
“Not at all, I am just telling you the truth. Sometimes we cannot see the truth due to how our emotions get in the way of our senses, hiding things that are in plain sight. So, like a blind person, we need to have the truth described to us, so that we will recognize it,” Delilah explained.
“So you truly believe one day my prince will come?” Kitty replied with a laugh.
“I do, I honestly do,” Delilah said.
“I just wish he would hurry up. Or I shall be a hundred on my wedding day,” Kitty replied.
“But perhaps then you would both be so old that your ailment will be of no concern to him,” Delilah said. “I am sorry,” she added hastily, “that was in poor taste.”
Kitty laughed. “No, it is also true. Perhaps when I am not so young I can find a man who understands me. Or perhaps, if I look after myself well, I shall soon be considered in excellent health for my age.”
Delilah laughed too now. “Perhaps so. You just wait and see. He will find you.”
A head of shiny blonde hair stuck in through the door. “Delilah, come back to the dance. Duchess Haskett is asking after you.”
Delilah nodded and the blonde head lingered in the doorway, beckoning excitedly with a lily-white arm. “I must go,” Delilah said, turning to Kitty. “I’ve had a chance to rest my feet and made a friend. I hope I shall see you again soon.”
“I also hope we shall meet again soon,” Kitty replied, watching as Delilah slipped her perfect little feet into her slippers and all but floated out the door.
She was so in awe of Delilah’s grace and beauty that she did not pick up her book again until the door had clicked softly shut.
Several weeks passed and slowly Kitty’s father forgot about her disobedience and she enjoyed some of the few freedoms that he did not consider “too much” for her. She was now able to go out into the garden, free run of the house including the dogs’ room, and, most importantly, to entertain guests a couple of times per week.
Although her heart still yearned for more, for now she was just glad not to be stuck in her room with nothing to do but read. She loved her books, but even at the resort she enjoyed more variety than one room and a shelf of books day after day.
Her friend, Duke Haskett, had come to visit her shortly after the gala, and his wife, Mary, had promised to spend more time visiting Kitty. She was a wonderful woman, and kept true to her word, regularly stopping by with flowers, books, sweets, and little trinkets, to brighten up Kitty’s day.
Dr. Allen was not exactly company, but it was nice to have him around. He rarely had much work to do with Kitty, as most days she needed no care at all, but he would make sure he was seen to administer oils for her joints, and to prepare her special herbal teas, to let Baron Langley see that Kitty was looked after.
Baron Langley too was more present, and he spent long days talking to Kitty, reading to her from his paper, and teaching the dogs new tricks, much to her delight. Although it got frustrating at times, in some ways it was nice that he still saw her as his little girl
Whereas many young women did not have a relationship with their father as they grew older, instead bonding with their mother, Kitty had grown very close to her father. And not having any male heirs to pass the title onto, Baron Langley was pleased to teach Kitty all about his responsibilities and rights.
She would listen to him intently, imagining herself in the future as a spinster, Baroness Kitty Langley, fulfilling the same position.
So she was not short of good company.
But the person who Kitty longed the most to see had not yet made an appearance. Helena Keats, her childhood playmate, was still very ill.
They had met through Dr. Allen, before he became their private family doctor. Back then he was a consultant for five families in the area, and one day, when visiting his office, Baroness Langley had bumped into Lady Keats. Although Lady Keats was several ranks below Baroness Langley, the two of them found they had much in common and soon became the best of friends.
Which meant that Kitty and Helena would play together a lot as children.
Both being sickly, they never left the playroom, and barely did anything, but they enjoyed it. It was nice to be able to play with another child that had their own energy and movement restrictions.
With time, Kitty had learned that Helena could not move her legs effectively or breathe very well because at the age of two a cart had run into her, crushing the lower portion of her back and ribs. She had regained some mobility, but would never walk normally again.
They found solace in one another, but whereas Kitty grew stronger and stronger as she received increasingly effective treatments, Helena only got worse and worse. It reached a point where Helena became bedridden, and besides the odd walk in a wheelchair, she barely left her house any more.
Nevertheless, they had remained friends. Although not as close as they were before, they never forgot one another and remained in contact through letters, visiting each other as much as possible.
But Helena had neither stopped by nor written a letter inviting Kitty to visit in all the time since she had returned. And now Kitty was worrying.
One night she woke up with a sense of dread. As though something absolutely terrible had just happened. She sat bolt upright, unable to get back to sleep at all. Something was very, very wrong.
As soon as she heard him walking down the hallway, she threw on her bed coat and went to find her father.
“Daddy,” she said, walking into the drawing room, “have we not had any news from the Keats family at all?”
“Not a bit, I’m afraid. I suppose they are busy. Or in London again,” he replied.
“But it has been nearly three weeks since I returned,” Kitty sighed. “Surely they should be home by now?”
“I am not sure, I have not heard much from them,” Baron Langley said. “Not since you last left for the resort, at any rate. I am sure they are simply busy. Helena’s condition does require a lot of upkeep. More than yours. No doubt they will reach out to us when they are ready for visitors.”
“Or perhaps their letters have been lost in the post,” Kitty replied.
“If you are that worried, how about you write to her?” Baron Langley said. “You have permission to use my study before breakfast, to compose the letter.”
Kitty felt a little excited. The study was not always open to her. “Thank you, I shall do that immediately.”
Her father’s study was a big, brown room with not much light and not much room to move around in. It was so full of different files, books, and stationary items, Kitty sometimes wondered if he had just bought an entire book store.
Settling into the vast leather chair behind the desk, Kitty sat down to pen a letter for Helena. The post would arrive later that morning, so perhaps she would be able to send it with the mail man.
“My darling Helena,
I hope that my letter finds you well. It is only that I have returned from my treatment at the resort and I was wondering if you should perhaps like to visit. Or perhaps I should visit you?
Please write back to me and let me know how you are!
Your dear friend, Kitty.”
Folding it into the envelope and rushing downstairs, she got to the door just as the post man knocked. At the second knock she swung the door open, startling him and causing him to drop the letters he was holding for them.
“I have a letter for you to take with you,” she said.
He shook his head a little. “And I have a letter for you, miss,” he replied, leaning down and picking up the three envelopes from the floor. “Two for your father, but one for you.”
They exchanged letters and as he walked off, Kitty’s heart beat faster. Perhaps this was from Helena? Then she could rest easy, knowing her friend was well.
Kitty looked at the letter in her hand. The handwriting was, sadly, not Helena’s. It wasn’t that of anyone she knew, for that matter. The letters were big, looping, and beautiful, in a thick ink which left folded ribbon-like lines behind, like an inscription beneath an artist’s drawing.
Kitty put her father’s two letters on the dresser beside the front door and tore her own letter open.
Please forgive me, I have asked Duke Haskett for your address as I need your assistance most urgently. My little brother has foolishly injured himself whilst riding down country roads last night. He is in great pain and needs someone to care for him.
Unfortunately, he rejects all medical care. No matter what I have said or done, he stubbornly refuses to have a doctor or nurse care for him. It is only after arguing with him the better part of the night that he agreed to a normal person, with some experience handling such conditions, becoming his in-house nurse.
The problem now is that I do not know of anyone else who could perform this task. And then I thought of you. You have lived with aches and pains much of your life. Perhaps you would be able to persuade him to care for himself? And to nurse him back to health?
I know it is a lot to ask, but my little brother really needs help, and it may be the only way of assisting him.
I beg of you, please consider my request.
Kitty was so surprised she read and re-read the letter a few times over. She didn’t even hear as her father walked into the hallway.
“What have we here? Why are you standing by the front door? There are cracks under the door, you will catch cold,” her father said.
“I have received a letter from Delilah Sinclair,” Kitty said. “But it’s ridiculous.”
“That name rings a bell,” Baron Langley remarked. “I think Delilah Sinclair was present at the gala on the night you were punished.”
Kitty nodded. “Yes, she came and spoke to me. Seemed a lovely young woman. A friend of yours?”
“No, she was someone important, I can’t quite put my finger on it… What is she like?” Baron Langley asked.
“Very tall and graceful, black hair, basically stunning,” Kitty said. “She’s very warm and friendly too, so happy to talk to me even though she did not know me.”
“Red dress, very thick hair and blue eyes?” Baron Langley asked.
“That is her, yes.”
“She is not so young, Kitty, but I know who you mean. She was talking to some very important people at the gala,” Baron Langley remarked. “What has she written to you about?”
“She says that her little brother has injured himself and needs someone to help look after him and nurse him back to health, and she is asking me,” Kitty explained.
“Do you wish to go?” Baron Langley asked.
Kitty did not hesitate. “I would love to. She seemed so nice, and it would be something new for me. Besides, how could I let a little boy down? The poor child is no doubt suffering, and must want someone to sympathize with him.”
“Do you really wish to do something so sudden?” her father asked, taken aback. “It may be dangerous, and you will be living away from home. I wouldn’t be there to care for you.”
She could hear pain in his voice. She knew he wanted her to say it was scary and she didn’t want to go. But she couldn’t lie to him. She needed to seize the moment.
“I just wish for a little freedom,” Kitty said meekly. “Just to be able to go out and do things with other women. Even if this is a bit unorthodox, I would enjoy it.”
“I see,” Baron Langley replied.
“Do you… do you not want me to go?” Kitty asked.
“I do not want you to go. I would rather keep you here, where I can see you and look after you. Nevertheless, I think it would be very good for you to go and help her. It would help improve your standing, and you would also be in the company of people who you consider friends,” he replied.
“So I may go?” Kitty asked, astonished.
“Of course you may. It is just a friend and her little brother. And your friend is a woman of standing. It is a fantastic idea to move in with them a while, and teach them from your own experiences,” her father explained.
Kitty grinned. “Thank you so much, daddy,” she replied.
“Besides, that is just the sort of thing which your mother used to do. And her recklessness led to me, and to you. I can put my faith in that,” he said, hugging her.
“I doubt I shall find love, but at least I may find fulfilment,” she replied.
“As long as my little girl is happy, I do not care,” he said.
Kitty was relieved to find out that Delilah Sinclair did not live very far. Although she had always dreamed of setting off on her own adventures, actually going somewhere unfamiliar concerned her. She had only ever experienced her home and the retreat ever since she was a little girl. It was nice to know that even though she was going on an adventure of her own, she would be within a two-day journey from home. And besides, a longer coach ride might have upset her joints. Two days, stopping at an inn on the way, was no trouble at all, and she knew she would be able to move normally as soon as she got out of the coach.
As they drove in through the gates, Kitty was taken aback by how well Delilah Sinclair lived. Her father had not been wrong when he assumed she was someone of importance.
The estate was quite a bit more than she had expected. The grounds along stretched out so far, and were so full of exotic plants, it felt like she was moving into another country, all owned by Delilah’s family. As the building itself became visible through the final row of silver birch trees, Kitty spied some enormous, spiky plants arranged around a fountain so vast she wondered if it carried a year’s worth of water or five.
Stepping outside, Kitty felt tiny in front of the huge white pillars and the looming doors of the house. The driver carried her bags up the stairs and rang the doorbell as she made her way up the steps more slowly, taking in every little feature, every carving and every accent, on the face of this magnificent building.
The door opened slowly and a servant guided them both inside. The building was as amazing inside as out. The walls and floor were gleaming marble, and the marble stairs were adorned with a rich red carpet, held down by weighty metal bars so it hugged each individual step. The furnishings were deep mahogany, and items from around the globe clung to every wall, shelf, and table. An elephant’s tusk, a Turkish carpet, a bear skin rug, and a vast brass gong were the biggest items Kitty could see, but around them cluttered countless smaller artefacts.
And yet before she could go and look at them, Delilah appeared at the top of the stairs, looking relieved.
“I am so glad you could make it!” Delilah said, gliding down the stairs and embracing Kitty warmly.
“I would not refuse you,” Kitty replied. “It is clear that you need my help, and I shall endeavour to do everything you need me to do.”
“Anything you can do at all is a blessing,” Delilah said. “He refuses all sorts of treatments. Doesn’t trust doctors at all. I’m at my wit’s end.”
“And where is your brother now?” Kitty asked.
“In his room, in bed,” Delilah said.
“Can he move at all?” Kitty asked.
Delilah shrugged, exasperated. “I have no idea. He won’t move, but the doctors can’t even inspect him to see if he needs some support or if he is just tired.”
“I see,” Kitty said. “Is there any reason for this?”
“He is sulking,” Delilah replied, shaking her head. “But I have no doubt that you shall get through to him in no time.” She began walking up the stairs. “Come with me, I shall introduce you to him.”
“What is his name?” Kitty asked. “And why do you think I can get through to him?”
“Augustus,” Delilah said. “And he doesn’t listen to doctors. But you are not a doctor. You are just another person who has experienced joint problems.”
“So it is his joints?” Kitty asked.
Delilah looked aside. “Yes, when he was found his back was twisted and his knee was completely out of place. They managed to reposition everything before he came to, but now he refuses any and all examination to determine the state of his insides. Here we are.”
They arrived in front of a tall, dark, ornate door, where Delilah stopped and knocked. Nobody inside said anything. She knocked again. Still no reply.
Delilah shrugged, swung the door open, and ushered Kitty in, following close behind her.
It quickly became apparent to Kitty that although he was younger than Delilah, Augustus Sinclair was not a little boy. In the bed lay a man, of at least thirty years, with thick black hair and a day of stubble, fast asleep between the pillows.
The blankets had slid down to his waist, revealing that he was wearing nothing but a light vest on top. A vest which was stretched at the arms and neck, revealing broad shoulders and a muscular, lightly hairy chest. A vest which clung to him so tightly that Kitty could see each outlined abdominal muscle, and even his belly button.
His chest rose and fell steadily with each breath. He stirred a little. The blankets slid down further, revealing a steak of flesh between the bottom of his vest and the top of his long johns, his hip bone and taut muscle fully in view.
“Great. He is sleeping,” Delilah said quietly. “We may do well to leave the introductions until later. He hates to be woken up. Come, let’s get tea and discuss what you can do to care for him.”
“But, he is a man,” Kitty replied nervously.
“Yes, he’s my brother,” Delilah said with a quiet giggle. “Did you expect a woman?”
Kitty tried to look away from him, her face growing warm. “I simply… I had assumed that he was… I thought he was a boy,” she stammered nervously. “You did say he was your younger brother.”
“Yes, younger by five years,” Delilah said, “but very much a man. Will that be a problem?”
“I am not sure I can be a nurse to an adult man, Delilah,” Kitty explained. “It is improper. My reputation will be ruined.”
“Nonsense,” Delilah replied. “All you are doing is keeping an eye on a friend’s brother. You shall not be in a room alone with him, you shall sleep in your own room at night. You will administer him medicine and nothing else. It is a very noble thing for the daughter of a Baron to do for an Earl.”
This also took Kitty aback. “An Earl?” she whispered to herself. Her eyes landed on the beautiful man lying in the bed at the far end of the room. That man was an Earl? He looked so rough, so unkempt, so rugged. She would have taken him for a noble’s mischievous son, perhaps, but not for a man with a title all of his own.
“Besides, nobody will know,” Delilah continued. “It will be between the four of us and the doctors, nobody else.”
“The four of us?” Kitty asked hesitantly.
“Yourself, your father, myself, and my brother, of course,” Delilah responded. “Nobody else needs to know.”
Kitty sighed. “I am not convinced of this, Delilah. It seems wrong.”
“It is not,” Delilah insisted. “Please, I beg you, please help us.”
Kitty could feel Delilah’s words pulling at her heart strings. But then she glanced at the sleeping man again. Earl Augustus Sinclair. He was too attractive, too desirable. There would be talk. “Promise me nobody else will ever find out,” Kitty said.
As they spoke, Earl Sinclair’s eyes fluttered open and landed on the two women. For a moment he seemed a bit dazed, then he focused on them. Kitty looked into his dark eyes and saw something she had not seen before. A strange combination of pain and desire, as his eyes scanned her figure. He smiled groggily and pushed himself up on the pillows.
Then he winced with pain and let out a groan, collapsing back, only sitting up a little straighter than before.
Kitty blushed, noticing that the movement had further pulled up his vest, revealing much of his hard, chiselled stomach, shining with a faint layer of perspiration, heaving with his pained breaths. She looked away and tried to fix her eyes on a painting across the room, but they kept being drawn back to that naked flesh.
“You are both making far too much noise,” he said, closing his eyes. “Go away if you shall bicker.”
“Do not be like that, brother,” Delilah replied. “She is the girl I told you about. The Baron’s daughter, the one with rheumatism. She has very kindly offered to look after you, so that you do not have to go to a hospital, and now you are going to scare her away with your rudeness.”
Earl Sinclair just groaned in what seemed like a combination of frustration and pain. He cracked open one eye. “Very well, she may sit with me.” He made no effort to move, or to cover himself.
Kitty looked to the bedside, where there was an empty chair. She had just wanted to leave. But something about him stirred something in her. The pain was something she knew, something she understood. And his stubbornness reminded her of her own father. She wanted to help him. She wanted to take away this beautiful man’s pain. Someone who looked so wonderful did not deserve to wear such a pained expression.
Striving not to look at his bare stomach and hips, Kitty sat down beside Earl Sinclair’s bed. “How are you feeling today? Your sister said you had an accident last night,” she began.
“I am feeling rotten, I am in agony, and those bird-witted doctors must have done something horrible to my back because it feels broken from top to bottom,” he replied, turning his head to face her, making eye contact.
She wanted to reply, but she tried to feel more compassionate. “I understand. It must be unusual for someone who was once healthy to experience so much pain all of a sudden. A bad day takes even me by shock.”
“What do you do on a bad day?” he asked.
“I rest,” she replied. “There is nothing more to do. The body heals itself very well, but it needs rest. Unless you want some ointments—”
“No,” he interrupted her. “No ointments. No herbs. No pills. Nothing of the likes. I will not have some snake oil salesmen trying to poison me just so they can charge to cure me.”
“You do not trust doctors?” she asked. “Very well, we shall use no medicine.”
His lips curled into a soft smile. “Ah, so you understand me, do you? Very well, then. You may be my nurse. But if you insult me or undermine my pain I shall fire you.”
And with that he sank into his pillows, almost immediately falling back asleep. Kitty stood up, trying not to look at his bare stomach again as she walked over to where Delilah was.
What a curious man he seemed to be already!
In some ways he reminded her of her father. He was gruff and stubborn, and he would only have things his own way. He was commanding her as though he believed he had a right to, and yet she felt compelled to look after him, if only because through all that stubbornness she could spot a hint of fear, of weakness, that he was trying to defend.
And yet in some ways he reminded her of her mother, especially after the illness, when she was despairing, had lost all her faith in medicine, and turned to God to either cure her or take her from this Earth.
“So, shall you stay, or am I forcing him into hospital?” Delilah asked as they walked out of the room.
“I shall stay,” Kitty replied.
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When Regina Hartfield’s father gambles away his fortune and land in a game of cards, it leaves her and her sisters distraught, facing destitution and an impoverished future.
Despite being shy and introverted, Regina can see the dire predicament of her family and knows that she must do something to restore their pride and financial situation. But where to start?
The entry of the disreputable Lord Harrison into her life, changes all that. With a rightly earned reputation as a gambler and something of a scoundrel, Lord Harrison has designs on Regina’s sister, Bridget. But he has skills that Regina needs and now she hatches a plan to save the family honor and give the infamous Lord what he wants at the same time.
At a masquerade ball, where faces are hidden, Regina plans to win back their fortune. It’s a risky strategy and involves learning a skill that all but destroyed her family’s good name, but she is desperate.
But can she pull off the deception without ruining her own reputation still further? And what of Lord Harrison himself? He’s the first man Regina has ever found herself drawn to, But Lord Harrison is in love with Bridget, not Regina—isn’t he?
“The Lady’s Gamble” is a historical regency romance novel of approximately 90,000 words. No cheating, no cliffhangers, and a guaranteed happily ever after.
Page Count: around 520+ pages
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